To Be Blonde Badass and Black

  "It's a resonation. It's a resonating with what is somehow buried, or suppressed. That's what an 'aha' is." ~~ Oprah Winfrey So doing a full blown book on my phone makes me aware of how smart they are and how easy it is now to create chapters, edit and get artwork for my own self-publishing. However, this article is not about technology and self-publishing. It's about being able to understand something differently or as Oprah first said, "looking at something differently than you have before." In my case there are three dreams I have kept in my psyche for years. I refused to forget them because none happened yet. Two of them I just couldn't figure out. And out of the three, two hadn't happened yet either until I did so much writing over the last ten years. This coming year happens to be 20 years after I self-published a 100 page memoir on my life in recovery in 2003.  Back then I worked in a science programs department where I order...

 So I am here again feeling a little blue. I have so much to do with so little. I am overwhelmed with some future challenges I have coming that make me feel like I am letting myself down. Just feeling like I stepped away from those challenges a bit. Even feeling a little ungrateful but I need to do this right now to regroup and understand the outcomes I have been aiming for this year and the next year or so because they are worth taking more time to achieve.  I am putting my intuition first and resisting the tendency to compulsively do shit without being in touch with how I truly feel about each step moving forward. Just being willing to take each step forward by listening to my own heartbeat. My own voice. I know no one can make it in this life alone. Yet I have chosen to handle a lot of problems in my life by myself during a few periods throughout my life. Choosing solitude was a form of refuge for me often for several reasons during these times (Marano, 2003; 2016). And I w...