Holidays

 Today I am still celebrating my butt off. Went to my sons' for Thanksgiving and they rolled out the red carpet for me for a change! I am so proud of them! After all of the crazy transitions we as a family had few. Although my oldest got engaged, got a promotion at his job my youngest struggled through the year with his job. He was a little stagnant to my oldest son's angst since they share an apartment together. But there have no backward movements fortunately. I also reminded my oldest that he was pretty stubborn and just as afraid to jump As he is being right now and that "this too shall pass."

 As for myself as long as I have art projects and areas of opportunity that earn me a dollar or two more I stay busy. Where I am in life I practically have to hustle for a beverage or workspace so I can make a few pieces of jewelry. It was okay until it wasn't. Because two dilemmas came up that totally made reflect on the real and some bullshit I had to face and purge to maintain respect for my genius.

First. I saw this guy online a few days before Thanksgiving. He is from Trini and we chatted it up back and forth for about a year and a half. I knew he was married. But we were on some real positive shit even though he didn't know too much about my business ventures. I didn't know much about a couple of items. So I asked about them sometimes when he he ran ads on them. Sometimes I asked questions about them. Other times I just asked how things were going and about his family. He started sharing a lot of deep stuff. Working different hours of the day. He had to hospitalize and bury relatives. One being his grandma. Sometimes last year I asked him when they celebrated holidays they had in his country. But mainly their holidays surround sports and Catholic icons. But they do in fact celebrate Christmas one day after we do.

So I saw him online a few days before Thanksgiving after not seeing him online. I might not have been on messenger for few days. So I wrote a personal greeting saying that whether we celebrate during the holidays or not I wanted to extend gratitude for friendships. This is the time of the year when I like to reflect happily on good times and good friends. I went on about my business and shortly after I got an actual messenger voice clip. The dude basically tore me down for being an American and celebrating Thanksgiving. Basically stating I am ignorant and do not know my history that Indian Americans were being slaughtered and skinned by white people when they overtook them 

I was immediately offended by this bitch assed behavior. So I followed up with some choice words for that ass about getting that fucked up attitude with me when I was sending positive vibes. I am so tired of these damn other Black people talking to to me like I have committed some crime or I am a stupid "American." I am seriously sick of these Black foreigners talking shit to to me over something white people did to them. Italians came to this country and started fucking up Indians. They want to all indigenous countries near Europe and brought great harm to Indians and Black people in the Caribbean. 

I was really hot about that shit because every now and again I have to check somebody about that shit. I shut his ass down and quickly unfriended him because he sent my original message back to me as if to prove a point. But fuck him. He's got no point. And I let him know that I do not have to tolerate his Black ass making his stupid assed comments when I was just trying to be friendly.

So I am really finding myself being able to enjoy the holidays even some of the activities I have been getting in evolved in. Three trees I decorated were so rewarding. Seven Christmas floral arrangements. I even decorated my door with some cheap stuff from the Dollar store. I even reopen my online boutiques and sold a bunch of bracelets to some locals. I really had it with that guy. And I realize he must not like being Black as much as I do if he has to criticize my culture and bring up some shit some other race should apologize for on that day. Bottom line if you're sensitive about that type of shit I am open to that conversation because I am not happy about what has be done to us during slavery. I do not like the existence of disparities, inequalities and extreme degrees of stratification. With this in mind there's more important shit to be worried about my being some dope and not being aware of the history of Black people's oppression and genocide. Especially having a Master's degree.

What an ass.

Anyhoo. Although I will be posting next month I wanted to remember what I am grateful for and how much I enjoy this time of the year even though some deep stuff happened around this time too. My biological father died just before Thanksgiving and next month will be the anniversary month of my mother dying. So this is my Hallmark moment: don't wait to mend your hearts, relationships and friends if you can. Start with simply sharing your heart.

Luv, To U & Me

Ms. BBB😘